There's A First For Everything.

so just got back from my class.
i swear i wanted to cry just now.i usually finish the damn run whenever they ask us to do it.yeah i'll be a bit slow but i never sit out when im halfway running. i actually stopped running coz i couldnt breathe properly. i was like okay it might go away after awhile but then when we started training i couldnt even put enough energy into it. i went to the loo and barfed.
i was like fucck wei.
i had to sit out for like 15 mins or so.
i wanted to cry.
i felt damn weak and pathetic. i havent been going for like 3 weeks but this was just plain week.i did take a few weeks off earlier but i was fine when i started back but i dont know what happened this time.
i was close to effing crying when my partner came to ask me if i was okay.i just nodded. coz my eyes were getting watery.
effing weak.i hate crying infront of people.
but i was able to get back into it and i was only fine because we did some light training after that
this will never happen again.
i wont allow it!
i dont like it when im like this.ugh.
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