so yeah.like i mentioned earlier before.im going to be in my first semester of degree on monday.
its 2 minutes to 5am and i tried going to sleep but i cant. im suppose to be up at 7am so right now i dont see the friggen point in sleeping so im going to rely on some good ol' coffee to last me throughout the day.
i cant stop thinking about things right now. like seriously a lot of things. im going to be honest here.i have no direction in life.i never planned my future when i was in high school.you know.like thinking im gonna take law or be a teacher or some sort.i mean yeah when people ask you what you want to become you pick something but for me i just pick some sort of job that was at the top of me head and just blurt it out.so far i wanted to be a doctor, lawyer, teacher and a vet. i did want to be a stewardess.DID okay.reason why is because i think thats the only thing i can do and hearing my parents story about their time working in the airline business seemed fun and interesting..but now im having doubts.im scared shitless of contacts and im short. and if i do decide to fly and all and lets say i dont get job. what then? i dont have a plan B.
im going on a blabbing frenzy now. after high school i didnt know what i wanted to do.applied for some course at college and i went for the interview and didnt get in..so i took a year off after SPM. i was working different types of jobs during that year and i still didnt know what i wanted to do. so truth be told my dad told me about the course that im currently taking in college.he told me to apply for it. and i went for the interview and i got in. life in college is fun and the things i learn there are cool and stuff.but still. i have options now and im not feeling any of them.whenever like im considering this sort of job in the future my mind just goes blank.all the jobs that i've considered i can never imagine myself doing it. when people know the course im taking in college they assume im going to get into the industry of it all..
but what if right now im doing good in college and graduate but i dont have the knack for the industry? what if i fail at it or if i cant handle the pressure of it all. they still ask me what i want to do once im done with college and my answer will always be: i dont know yet.im just going with the floww.
i know that maybe i shouldnt be thinking about this now but as i mentioned earlier.time IS passing by super fast these days and yeah. i gotta think about what im going to do in life.i need a friggen sign. i feel lost right now.
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its 2 minutes to 5am and i tried going to sleep but i cant. im suppose to be up at 7am so right now i dont see the friggen point in sleeping so im going to rely on some good ol' coffee to last me throughout the day.
i cant stop thinking about things right now. like seriously a lot of things. im going to be honest here.i have no direction in life.i never planned my future when i was in high school.you know.like thinking im gonna take law or be a teacher or some sort.i mean yeah when people ask you what you want to become you pick something but for me i just pick some sort of job that was at the top of me head and just blurt it out.so far i wanted to be a doctor, lawyer, teacher and a vet. i did want to be a stewardess.DID okay.reason why is because i think thats the only thing i can do and hearing my parents story about their time working in the airline business seemed fun and interesting..but now im having doubts.im scared shitless of contacts and im short. and if i do decide to fly and all and lets say i dont get job. what then? i dont have a plan B.
im going on a blabbing frenzy now. after high school i didnt know what i wanted to do.applied for some course at college and i went for the interview and didnt get in..so i took a year off after SPM. i was working different types of jobs during that year and i still didnt know what i wanted to do. so truth be told my dad told me about the course that im currently taking in college.he told me to apply for it. and i went for the interview and i got in. life in college is fun and the things i learn there are cool and stuff.but still. i have options now and im not feeling any of them.whenever like im considering this sort of job in the future my mind just goes blank.all the jobs that i've considered i can never imagine myself doing it. when people know the course im taking in college they assume im going to get into the industry of it all..
but what if right now im doing good in college and graduate but i dont have the knack for the industry? what if i fail at it or if i cant handle the pressure of it all. they still ask me what i want to do once im done with college and my answer will always be: i dont know yet.im just going with the floww.
i know that maybe i shouldnt be thinking about this now but as i mentioned earlier.time IS passing by super fast these days and yeah. i gotta think about what im going to do in life.i need a friggen sign. i feel lost right now.
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